I find myself at the point I have been broken. I am amazed that I have surrendered so much power over myself to someone else. With a few words it is possible to completly break me. It seems that after a few months I still have the same questions.

How do you change one's opinion of you?
How do you get along with those determined to make things as difficult as possible?
How did I get in this situation in the first place?

The real question is why.

I am going to get it together.

In other news britney spears is my new favorite person. She's such a cool mom and amazing dancer.

You Stay Classy,

Planet Earth.

I sure do wish that peopled used xanga again. It was so much fun back in the day.

Had a performace today. I didn't blow it. Good for me.

It's been a while.

I have about 10 days left of school. Its been kind of ugly recently. I'm not as nice as I used to be. I'm not as fun as I used to be. My grades are ok, but I am not getting along with anyone. Normally I am inclined to think that other people are the problem, which is partially true. But I cannot control others I can only control myself. It's frustrating to know that I am screwing stuff up, and I have no idea how to fix it.
How do you change one's opinion of you?
How do you get along with those determined to make things as difficult as possible?
How did I get in this situation in the first place?

It's 2:30 and I have done nothing today.

I will update more often.

Goodnight and goodluck.

www.band.tcu.edu

Its amazing you must look.

Stay Classy
Carr

I guess it is time for me to update since it has been more than a month.

Doesn't it always seems like good things happen to people who do not deserve them and bad things happen to good people.

I guess I find myself sinking into a bit of jealously and self-pity.

But I see opportunities given to people who dont work nearly as hard as I do. I see attention and leeway given to those who bitch and complain to get their way, while I stay patient and work through problems. I see people who are mean and manipulative get so much romantic attention while others who are so nice and deserving are overlooked. and then the whole outward appearance thing figures into that as well but most people don't care.

I think at the grand age of 19 i have become old and bitter. But who came blame me when some people are so selfish and undeserving. but alas after I write this I will go back to being nice because I am nice and I like everyone just sometimes I get a little fed with them.

You can play deal or no deal online and it is amazing!